Why?

Why I always feel so much pain
When I go through so much in my lifetimes?
I have no parents who does not really care about me
Because Iam girl.
Why this happen to me that I always wish
That my life wasn't mine.
I hated being a abused in last 10 year ago.
My life wasn't normal like everybody does.
I never know how to love someones or someones to love me.
Why I don't have a mother and father right now? Why?
I wish I was adopted but it didn't come out right.
Everybody making fun of me because I have hearing aids,
I have no parents, and I don't lived a normal home like everybody else does..
Why can't be just be happier and feel so peaceful in my heart.
I always feel my arms must be so empty because I don't know what to do.
Why can I have someone to count on and look up to.
I always wanted to have mother and daughter relationships
When things was so touchable, like hugs, play eachother, look out eachother,
give good night kisses and morning too.
Why can I just have parents so I can feel that someones does care about me?
I always feel outside stand of feeling the inside of the heart.
I wish I can called someone a mom or dad somedays,
But now I don't have one anymore. I'm only 15 yr old.
Why?