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I had a secret in my heart that really make me want to kill myself. I gave up my best friend. She was my first best friend i ever met in my life. Her name is Jenny. We met on internet. She was 2 years older than me. We met each other in chatroom. Jenny was very talkative, she made fun jokes and I really loved them. We talks about everything happened each day, yeah, we talk 24/7. After 2 years of chatting, we got really close, she become a part of my life. I know I'm also part of her life.

One day, I made a decision that I'm so regret now. I choose to stop our friendly relationship. Why? Because a stupid reason. . .I met my girlfriend that I really love, she didnt like about me chat to Jenny,a girl that had more conversations then she has with me. She told me to give up the relationship.

Yeah, I done it. For the first month, I can't really control myself. It's like I miss something important in my life. I treated Jenny as my older sister, but a sister that I really love and cares about. I would still remember the last thing I told her that I have a nice girlfriend, she was very happy about it too. But now, it's gone. After the second month I just notice it's torture to myself, everytime go on MSN, and you find out that your best friend is gone. It's a grieve

If I have the same feeling right now, either does Jenny.

Another 2 years passed, day by day I had forgotten this friend, forgot the pain I gave to her and myself. But a sad day bring me back to all the memories. From some ways, I found out that she change her name to Elison, which I told her that my best friend's name was Elison. At that moment, I feel sorry for the things I did to her. She even came to New York to find me just about a year ago.

I want to say Sorry to her, but I don't have the courage anymore. I think it's better that we both forget about each other. Well, what a dumb thing I did in my life. I think I will regret till the day I die.